Shadow Beliefs

"A "Shadow Belief" is an unconscious belief that influences our entire lives, tells us what we can and can not do, and drives our behaviors. What beliefs have held you back?"

I found this question on a website recently, and I thought... Wow, what beliefs haven't held me back!?
I was raised in a christian family, being dropped off at Sunday school every single Sunday. I grew up trying so hard to be that perfect christian woman. I constantly had to fight against my true nature to be her, though. I wasn't born a quiet, conservative woman who loves children. I am opinionated, open minded, other people's kids make me nervous, and there is a bit of a feminist in me. They said I was wrong, I was being influenced by the sin and evil in the world. I believed them.
My mother did a fine job of teaching me guilt, worry, and the fact that I was never going to amount to anything because I could never do anything right. She doesn't do it on purpose, her mother treated her that way. But I believed her.
You know how there is always one person in the class that everyone picks on? That was me. The boys, mainly, were always calling me names, telling me how fat I was, being incredibly rude. (I look at pictures of me then and wonder how on earth they got me to believe I was fat!!) But I believed them.

I seem to have always believed other people over myself, except when people said nice things about me, and then I thought they must just want something from me.
I need to look at all of this as though it were someone else's life, and think about what I would tell them. Then I need to take my own advice.
I know there are good things about me.
I am a hard worker.
I am a good mother.
I am a good friend.
I write fairly well.
I am very loving and compassionate.
I love helping people.
I am creative.
I have common sense. (seems to be a rare thing these days)
I am open minded.
I work very hard to never judge anyone.

I often wonder how other people really see me, if what I think they are thinking is true. I always believe the best about everyone else, and the worst about myself. The last few days I have been able for the first time to see myself through the eyes of someone who really appreciates me, who really loves me. That has really made all the difference.